I occasionally find strange notes I wrote at times when I had reason to believe I wouldn’t remember my thoughts. Sometimes I find myself in a certain mental state and I get flooded with ideas – or at least it feels like a flood at the time. They all seem like good ideas to me, but I recognize that I’m not qualified at that moment to tell the difference. Every now and then a few of these thoughts make it to paper, and I find them months later. Rarely is there anything groundbreaking.
Today I found some notes I was taking on the difference between “faith” and “trust”. I remember what spurred the research. It was an episode of the Geologic Podcast. I looked up the definitions of the words and was comparing them. But in the middle of my notes I found this:
“Chrissy and I have been together for 10 years. We’ve done so much together and lived so much of our lives together (1/3) that it makes exploring the future together better and more exciting. We know our pasts, and we’ve lived so much life together. We focus on living now. Pretty cool. I need to rewrite this in sobriety.”
Having reread it in sobriety, I think it’s just fine.